Julie Marion

september 2011

You can hear the sound of her heart breaking as her tears hit the floor and shatter like glass. You can hear the sound of her heartbeat, slowly fading, only to suddenly speed up again.
You can also feel the warmth of her smile on your cold bare skin, and you can taste her happiness as if it were your own.
You can see right through her, straight into her hopeless adolescent heart, and you can feel her love, radiating through you like a thousand lightning strikes all happening at once.
This love she holds inside of her, it is so pure and intense, that she’s losing her mind. She has all of these feelings gathered in the palm of her hands, slowly accumulating, only waiting to pour through her fingers.
She loves you so much, that even she cannot entirely comprehend it.
She loves you so deeply, that it physically hurts her to see you leave.
If we know love can hurt so much, why do we let ourselves become so vulnerable?
The only answer that I have found to fit, is that there is no right answer.
We love because we cannot help ourselves, and we love because no matter how hard it may be sometimes, it still heals our wounds and warms our hearts.
Love is in our nature, no matter how hard we may try to push it away at times. That need to love and to be loved, it will always be there.

She loves you, you know. And if you love her as much as you say you do, I would never let her go.


- J.G.

My heart aches when you are not near;

I can feel it pulsing through my veins, weakening my bones. Your absence makes me weary, the mere thought of your farness takes my breath away. It is the miles that seperate us, even if only momentarily, that make me want to run into your arms and stay there until I am forced to come up for air.
When you leave my side, I realize how much I need you in my life. I love you like I never thought I could, and to be honest, that scares me to death. To imagine my life without you now seems impossible, because you are the reason that I get up in the morning and keep this smile on my face.
Lately I’ve been trapped inside my head, reliving those moments that broke my heart a month ago. I hate to be needy, but I need your comfort to bring me back to reality. You have the power to make my heart swell with happiness, or shatter into a million irreplacable pieces. And this vulnerability that haunts me, it’s been killing me inside. I have opened myself up entirely, and all I need is for you to love me back.
When you whisper those three words to me, my heart races every time. And as I whisper them back, I feel complete.
I cannot even understand, how in love I am with you.

- J.G.

fight

For some, love comes as easily as can be. Everything works out in their favor, and the love blossoms effortlessly.
For others, love is the hardest thing to keep alive. It’s a daily task, something you have to work at every single day. But does that make it any less worth it?
People keep telling me that this should be easy, that if it’s already this hard, it’s because it will never work out. Honestly, I beg to differ.

Giving up may bring comfort to some, but to me it represents nothing but a mistake. If you never try, you will always fail. Yet some people still choose to take the easy route, yet end up waiting forever for their prince charming to show up at their door and sweep them away.
The road gets bumpy and the street lights begin to flicker, and yet I keep on going. I keep on holding on through the storm that is pouring down on me, despite the excrutiating pain that the thought of losing you brings.
Despite the useless arguments and the confusion that plagues us, despite the pain that you bring to me when your heart strays from mine, even if only for a second… I still believe in us, and I know that you do too. You may lose sight of it sometimes, but if I thought you no longer cared, I would have walked away a long time ago.
The truth is that love is never easy, yet it tricks us into thinking that it is.
It’s easy to fall in love, yet so hard to fall out of.
Now remains this one last question: is it really worth it?
If you ask me…

Always.

-JG